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AHhahaha! scratch that last emo-post. silly me.

The basement flooded. No practice for a while. God went "SMITE!" and most of our gear became wet. But these things happen.

:P

I've been neglecting this place. Not that anyone really cares... I'm sure no one even reads this anyway.

I'm trying to sleep and failing, figuring out the complexities of life. I don't think anyone can ever go through life without having a "holy shit" moment. I'm in the middle of mine... It's coming and going. I'm slowly figuring out that my life is my own, and belongs to nobody but me. I know it sounds like "duh"... but its kinda crazy how much I've lived my life for other people.

Anyway.... I gave into twitter today. *sigh*

oh dear dear.

Its a beautiful day. Like gorgeous. Oh how I love it.
I should be doing work right now, but I left it all at home. Well, that's not entirely true. I left most of it at home. That's really just my excuse for not doing it.
But now I have an hour to kill before class. Its taking all my energy to stay on campus and not go home and sleep. I'm pretty much struggling to keep up, but I think I'm doing a pretty good job struggling.

Its crazy, I got sick the exact same part of the quarter I did last time. Coincidence? I think not! This time i'm NOT going to let it stop me. I'm gonna keep on trucking, as much as I may hate hate hate it. I just don't wanna fail again. It may break my spirit.
:'( awwwwwwww

I really wish I had something more interesting to write about. My creative flow is fluctuating. BOo.

Fin.

A New Start

I'm doing my best to keep my chin up! School started yesterday. I've never been good at school. This quarter, though, seems promising. I'm only taking three classes and all the teachers are pretty badass. It's still going to be a challenge, but a more approachable and maybe even a more fun challenge.

There are still a million things in my life I have to straighten out before I feel like I can live truly happily, but I'm getting there.

I feel as though I was living a static life for a while. I didn't do much with my time. I've recently renewed my interest in art and music, and feel like I'm at least a little bit better at creating things. I always get compliments that I'm creative but I've always had trouble believing them...

In other, less happy news, I found out recently that my favorite/only grandfather was just diagnosed with terminal cancer. We don't know how long he has left, but it isn't long. My dad is going up to Maryland to be with his family. I just wish I could go with him.
My grandfather is perhaps one of the most amazing people I've ever met. He wasn't perfect, he made his grave mistakes as everyone has in life, but he learned from them. He has lived a full life. He's made me believe in so many things. He's filled me with a sense of curiosity, love, and excitement. I always loved visiting him and my uncle. Unfortunately I haven't seen them in over three years.
I wish I could go and tell him how much I appreciate him; how much his life has inspired me.
I just wish I had more time.